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The Hidden Burden of Unresolved Trauma: My Journey Through Military Service

2024-09-18

When I enlisted in the military at the age of 21, I believed I was embarking on a transformative journey. Little did I know, I carried with me a heavy emotional baggage filled with unresolved trauma. In hindsight, I now see that delaying my enlistment could have benefitted my mental health significantly.

According to research conducted by the Psychological Health Center of Excellence, active duty service members often experience unique challenges such as combat exposure, high operational tempo, and demanding training. These factors can heighten the risk of psychological issues compared to the general population. By understanding these trends, the Department of Defense (DOD) is better positioned to develop effective prevention and treatment programs aimed at these hardships.

Reflecting on my experience, I realized that it took me several months after arriving at my first duty station to seek help from the Behavioral Health Clinic. I was consumed by the demands of boot camp and subsequent training, which prevented me from addressing my mental health challenges sooner. It wasn’t until I began noticing the toll this unresolved trauma was taking on my sleep and mood that I finally made the call for an appointment.

In my initial duty station, getting an appointment was relatively easy, and I was fortunate to be referred to a compassionate therapist who specialized in working with service members. This support was life-changing. It gave me the courage to voice my internal struggles, a process that felt both liberating and challenging at the same time.

After completing further training, I was assigned to an operational command where the stakes were high and readiness was paramount. Unfortunately, I soon discovered that my mental health support was lacking. The reality is that the military operates like a business, constantly weighing decisions against its operational interests. As a result, service members often feel the pressure of duty overshadowing their mental well-being.

My struggles intensified—burnout set in, exacerbating feelings of irritability and helplessness. During this tough period, I was allowed to seek care outside of military facilities. This community therapist was knowledgeable and worked in collaboration with my military psychiatrist, providing a holistic approach to my treatment. This partnership not only facilitated a comfortable environment but also introduced me to different therapeutic techniques, including Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR), which proved instrumental in my recovery.

Despite the resources available, stigma around mental health persists among service members, particularly from older generations. Research indicates that while the military has made mental health care more accessible, many individuals still hesitate to seek help due to deeply ingrained beliefs about mental strength and resilience.

In response, I encourage my fellow service members to prioritize their mental health. Therapy can take many forms, and not everyone will need intense sessions. Even occasional check-ins can make a profound difference in navigating the unique pressures of military life.

If you or a loved one is grappling with mental health issues, remember that help is available. You can reach out to the Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration's National Helpline at 1-800-662-HELP (4357) or text "HELLO" to 741741 for immediate support.

Addressing mental health in the military should never carry the stigma of weakness; rather, it is a vital step in ensuring the well-being of those who serve.