In a shocking revelation, Indianapolis Colts' right tackle Braden Smith recently opened up about his battle with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), a struggle that became so severe it forced him onto the non-football illness list in December 2024. For much of the previous season, Smith's performance on the field was overshadowed by a hidden battle that few were aware of.

Smith's condition manifested primarily in the form of religious scrupulosity, where his Christian faith spiraled into a tormenting obsession. “I was physically present, but I was nowhere to be found,” Smith shared candidly, confessing that his passion for the game had vanished, along with his connection to family life, including his wife and newborn son. “I felt like I was a month away from putting a bullet through my brain,” he revealed, emphasizing the dire state of his mental health.

The earliest signs of his struggle began in March 2024, leading to an internal conflict between his devout religious beliefs and the crippling demands of OCD. “There’s the actual, real, true, living God,” Smith described, contrasting it with an imagined “OCD god” that condemned him mercilessly for every perceived mistake. "It was like every wrong move equated to punishment," he explained.

Recognizing the severity of his situation, Smith and his wife sought professional help. He committed to a rehabilitation facility in Colorado for 48 days, after which he also pursued innovative treatment options, including an ibogaine therapy program in Mexico. This bold step marked a turning point in his recovery journey.

Today, Smith reports a marked improvement as his OCD has shifted from severe to mild, and he has returned to the Colts with renewed vigor. Colts General Manager Chris Ballard expressed support, stating, "Getting Braden Smith back, and he’s in a great spot. I think people forget how good Braden is."

What's remarkable about Smith's journey is not merely his return to professional football but the potential impact his openness could have on others. As he highlights the importance of seeking help and breaking the silence surrounding mental health issues, Smith stands as an inspiring figure for those enduring similar struggles.

By sharing his experience, Smith is not just reclaiming his life but also encouraging countless others to confront their own battles with mental health openly. In a world where many suffer in silence, stories like Smith's remind us of the power of vulnerability and the possibility of recovery.